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I keep meaning to write a post. I remind myself daily, “Don’t forget today!”. And then another week passes. It’s not even that things are that busy. It is active, but not so much that I don’t have lots of time at the end of the day to play WoW or even to pluck away at some knitting. But I never seem to get to the actual writing of a post.

What I am finding is that, despite the completely manageable schedule I’m keeping, I’m feeling more stressed than I have in several years. Back in 2001/2002, I started to have anxiety attacks (or at least that’s what I call them). It was a combination of a number of things - my father passing, then my mother-in-law a few months later, a work place that was developing into somewhere I just didn’t want to be, and kids who were testing every last nerve I had. I made some changes, including a move to another province and a new job, and for the longest time things were much better.

But recently, the anxiety has started to return. I know that 95% of it is work related. I’m not inclined to change jobs, so perhaps I need to start finding a better method to deal with that (the hold it in and press it down until it turns into a bitter hard ball in the pit of my stomach method I favour doesn’t seem to be doing the trick any longer).

Maybe I just need to knit more.